Patience is a Virtue

Patience. A word that seems so simple but is very complex. The capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble or suffering without getting angry or upset. Why, as humans, is this so hard?

We may not get to choose our battles, but we can choose how we fight our battles. Every day we have a choice. We can decide to get upset over our circumstances (slow drivers, relationships, pet peeves, etc.) or we can choose to give up our way and realize that we have no control over what happens in our lives.

For the past couple of months, I have been in what seems like a valley. There are times that feel like the highest mountaintop, but it has definitely been a season none the less. The Lord knows that I struggle with impatience, so he has definitely been putting me in positions where only he could intervene on my behalf. This season has been one of continual surrender of patience but I have seen that through God's peace. Peace knowing that we have a Heavenly Father that not only sees the past, but the future as well. We don't have to worry because God's timing is the best. I may have mentioned this is a previous blog, but I heard a statement before that has really stuck with me.

"God works in reverse engineering."

Where we can only look back on the past and live in the future, God sees everything. The messy, the broken, the beautiful, the in-between. He ordains our days. Because God can see the past, present and future, he corresponds our days with one another. He has a specific plan for our future and sometimes they are a result of the past. For example, if a relationship didn't work out for you in your timing, that doesn't mean it's not going to happen at all, it just may not be God's best for you at that moment. God may have opportunities for you that he wants to fulfill through you first before you reconnect with that person. Now, it doesn't always happen that way, but it is a possible outcome. God is a wild, crazy, faithful, loving God. Don't put him in a box. He can do more with your life than you can even imagine.

Anyways, I got a little side tracked. I was previously talking about how I'm currently going through a waiting season. I'm not going to go into detail, but I did want to share a story.

So, I love music with a passion. It speaks to me in more ways than one. A few months ago, I was looking for a song about patience to help me, and to my surprise, I couldn't find one. After getting nowhere, I kind of forgot about it. Fast forward maybe 2 weeks. I decided to turn on my Spotify. At this point, I was feeling more down in the dumps and fearful which was a result of impatience. So I decided to pray. Now, I pray about this situation multiple times a day, but this time I was specifically praying about patience with trusting God's will & God's timing. As I was speaking those words, I overheard the word patient being said on a song. The lyrics were:

"When my world keeps on shaking and I'm breaking.

When the skies keep on raining and I'm fading.

Help me to be okay with what I can't change

and remind me there is meaning in the waiting.

Help me to be patient."

Even though I may have been in distress, at that moment, I just started thanking God. That was exactly what I needed to hear in that moment and he pulled through for me. That was a true God moment that I will never forget. Now, I want to make something clear. Even though I had that intervention, that does not mean that it gets any easier when I go through those trials. Well, take it from me, it doesn't. It helps to have a little bit more hope than previously, but I still constantly have to resurrender my fear/worries when they come and trust me, they come. I just have to trust that God has shown himself before, so why wouldn't he do it again?

God gives us what we need in the moment, but that doesn't necessarily mean that he is going to magically make everything better. 9 times out of 10 he doesn't. He wants to use the journey to show his faithfulness to us to ultimately strengthen our faith towards him. He wants to change the fear to trust, the worry to hope, and the messy to beautiful. All through his redemptive story that you are playing a part in today.

Currently, it's probably been a month from that point and I'm still in the waiting season. I still have high's and low's but I have to trust that the one who has the world in his hands, has my life in his hands as well. Today, when trials hit, I just have to remember to be faithful on my part. Put one foot in front of the other. Love God & others well. Take each day as it comes. If you are faithful with what God has blessed you with, he will take care of you. Through trials and tribulations. Always remember that.

I hope you have found this to be encouraging. Don't be afraid to leave a comment/DM me on one of my socials with prayer requests or anything at all.

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