Wow, has it been a hot minute! Life has been crazy lately and probably not in the way that you are thinking. About a few weeks ago, I went into a very serious season of what felt like depression. I felt extremely lonely, unsettled, and my home life was rough as well. That was an extremely rough couple of weeks for me. I did not feel like doing anything other than my daily routine. I went to work, went to the gym, got home around 6pm or after, ate and then went to sleep. That is why I have not gotten a blog post up in what feels like months. It is extremely difficult to have the motivation to do the things you want to when you're in a depressive state of mind. My day to day schedule felt extremely repetitive and nothing exciting was happening. Some nights I would even go to sleep extremely early. I remember one night I went to sleep at 6:30pm and slept the entire night because I "didn't want to be in the world right now". I know, super sad. Looking back, I have realized that my relationship with the Lord was not the strongest at that point in my life. As a result of that, it was affecting every part of my life. Relationships, work-life, home-life, my attitude, etc.
Currently, present me doesn't have it all together either. A few weeks later and I still feel somewhat lonely, unsettled, and uncertain of the future but my relationship with the Lord is the strongest it's ever been and because of that, my whole perspective has changed! A common theme I have been reading or seeing places lately is that "You have everything you need at this current moment. If you don't have it, you don't truly need it." I am a very impatient person. I have noticed that recently. I'm not exactly sure why, but when I want something, I want it at that current time. Part of the fun though is seeing how it all plays out! God designs our life so that we can look back and see how he has guided us through his faithfulness! He wants us to enjoy the journey! He wants us to sit back, relax and enjoy the wild ride that he has set in place for us. All we can do is just be faithful with what is set before us each day and He will take care of the rest! Isn't that an amazing promise?! We have a God that loves us so much that he calls us not to worry about tomorrow (Matthew 6:34) but to be faithful in the little and he will provide bigger opportunities (Luke 16:10). I encourage you to rest in that! Believe me, I know that is so much easier said than done but it's really simple if we could just be patient and not act like we're in control. Good things take time and trust me when I say God's timing is the best! I have seen multiple instances where if I would've been in control of my life at certain moments, my life would be in shambles right now.
Just trust the process, enjoy the journey, and ask the Lord to prepare you for whatever He puts in front of you next. He can do some crazy unexpected things if you just let it happen in His timing! God will work it out. Remember, He is God, you are not!
If you have any prayer requests, please drop them below or message me privately. I would love to come alongside you in the best and only way that I know to do.
I hope you all have a great rest of your week!
Keep Smiling :)